Family Meeting Forthcoming

We need to have a family meeting before I go back to work and I will tell you why. I am incredibly fearful that the lives of our family will slowly but surely wind up exactly where they were six months ago...slaves to the clock, slaves to the rushing mindset, and slaves to achieving goals...Goals in which we aren't even sure why they are so important to us anymore. I am fearful of regressing back into that way of life. I am afraid that my work will consume me as I try to re-learn everything and prove I am worth retaining. Will I be able to juggle everything again without being consumed by it?

An example: I do laundry every other day now. However, I used to do laundry every Saturday when I was working/commuting 55+ hours a week. I grocery shopped on Saturday mornings arriving around 7am before the rest of the world could get there. The kids and I would clean the house on Saturdays and try really hard to be finished in time to go to dinner or a movie or someplace special with Big Daddy Saturday night. Running the kids hither and yon... Running errands... Running wild...

I am fearful of the return to madness that was my life. Always striving to prove myself and for what...or maybe the better question is for whom? Of course I want my husband to be proud of me...and our children...and my family...and our friends...and total strangers for that matter, but why? Obviously some deep-seated, emotionally needy reason looms, but I don't want to go there.

Will that inner child ever grow up?!??!?!? Geez!

Anyway, we need to have a family meeting so that we can all be on the same page. I don't want our Saturdays consumed with cleaning or housework anymore. I don't want to be at the grocery store at 7am because if I am not, the day is thrown so far off, it is impossible to catch back up. I don't want to look at the clock period. I just want to live and savor each moment and love my family and friends and be a good Christian, a good person, a good servant.

It sounds so easy...

January 4th is right around the corner and so is the biggest, daily challenge of my life...not allowing time to rob me of time...