Thank you!!

First and foremost, thank you all so very much for the encouraging words about following my dream as a photographer. It has taken me a few days to read through all the personal emails I received, so my apologies for taking so long to post. Thanks, again, for those who posted to the blog, as well. Your words were kindhearted and inspiring to me. I thank you, humbly.

Another reason I have been a few days in posting is because I am so incredibly tired. Being back to work is taking a toll physically…and I dare say mentally, as well. As I prepared for my return to work, I was more concerned about not being able to understand/comprehend/process the delicate and complicated information I deal with on a daily basis. As it turns out, I was justified in that fear. While I cannot divulge my specific work details due to the security involved, I can tell you this: My work is hard and my brain no longer operates in “hard” mode. Anyway, I am at work by 6:30-7am, mentally drained by the first three requests I don’t understand, home by 4 to greet the kids from school, and in the bed by 4:30. Generally, I have dinner going while I take a nap, have Beautiful Daughter wake me up when it smells like dinner or like something is burning, then we eat dinner or something burned. After dinner, family time, until I fall over again around 10pm. Somewhere in there, I read your emails and posts…and I was touched.

As of today, I have four photo shoots under my belt and it really is all I think about. Ideas for this, ideas for that. My mind races about photography. My first class is Saturday in Louisville. It is specifically for my camera and how it works. This will be good because right now, anything I have figured out about my awesomely fantastical camera is by the grace of God. I cannot understand the owner’s manual. I believe there is truth in the owner’s manual, however, the words are so far above my head, that I cannot begin to comprehend them. I have to “do” something to grasp the concept. Reading about it with an occasional picture, does nothing for me. I feel rather incompetent and stupid, to be honest…and when you consider that I feel that way at work, the quota for “feeling like a moron” has not only been met, but exceeded, at any given point. Needless to say, I am excited about my class on Saturday.

As you recall, Lucy is my friend and breast cancer survivor. She is going on three years since her diagnosis. I asked Lucy how long it took her to regain her knowledge base and ability to remember, comprehend, and make sense of directions. She said she would let me know when it happens. Oh dear.

I do have good news, however…Girl Scouts are taking orders for cookies therefore I am only weeks away from Tagalongs, Samoas, and DoSiDos. God is good.