Very Cool, Super Cool, Ultimate Cool

Believe it or not, life goes on whether or not I have cancer, you have a headache, or they have the flu. However, get this...there is goodness everywhere despite the most dire of circumstances. For the record, I don't consider myself in "dire circumstances", I just have cancer, but goodness finds me anyway...



I was playing chauffeur to Beautiful Daughter and her friends. The three giggly girls had just finished a "Zumba" lesson at the church and they were pretty hyped up. Their conversation was audible over the pop music playing and it veered from boys to dance to school and such. A song came on that Beautiful Daughter and I love to "car dance" to. As if on cue, we both hear the song and start our moves. I was sort of taken aback that Beautiful Daughter did not tell me to stop, but she didn't. You just never know with teenagers if your every day action will be viewed as cool or stupid, even though the action does not change...just the audience.



The song played, the volume increased, and we car danced. Beautiful Daughter's friends were singing along and enjoying the show, so to speak. It was so much fun, mostly because I was not shushed or hushed or given the "death stare of embarrassment" to quit. The song ended and the three girls had this conversation...



Melissa: "That was so cool! Your mom is awesome!"



Beautiful Daughter: "Why do you say that?"



Melissa: "Well, my mom never dances in the car or anywhere else with me."



Janie: "Yeah, mine either. She always tells me to sit still and be quiet in the car."



Melissa: "I wish my mom was cool like that."



Beautiful Daughter: "Yeah...my mom's awesome."



Janie: "Your mom is so much fun!"



And the music played on and I smiled a lot as my heart sang. Very cool.



Another cool thing that made me smile was while talking with my friend, Kimmie, who had come to visit me from Florida, which I will write more about later.



We were talking at the kitchen table and she was telling me how she was able to meet Amy Grant, the Christian music star who several of us have loved listening to for years and years. Kimmie showed me pictures of her meeting Amy Grant and how she stood next to her for the "Meet and Greet" so she could crop the others out of the photo, which made me laugh out loud.



As we were talking, Kimmie shared with me the story of "Grace". Grace had confided in Kim throughout their years of friendship, the very difficult life she had growing up. The story touched me deeply as I listened and I decided I wanted to meet her, talk with her, befriend her. I told Kim that I was inspired by this woman's story and hoped we could be friends. Now, this is where it gets super cool... Kimmie says, "you know how meeting Amy Grant meant the world to me, well, Grace feels that way about you...you are her Amy Grant".

I was blown away...humbled, touched, and absolutely blown away.

Wow.

Now, I know that there are more of you that are not "followers" who read my blog regularly, than are actual followers, thanks to how many "hits" my website receives...plus the personal emails and phone calls saying some of you just cannot figure out how to become a follower, which still makes me laugh. (Go to Google.com and open a google email account called g-mail, then you can post comments and become a follower.) Anyway, Grace is one of my followers who is out there and I don't know it. Sometimes I wonder if anyone is still out there reading what I write. Some of you are certainly still out there because when I go for a few days without posting, I get an email or phone call wondering why. That, too, is terribly cool.

I will apologize for not writing as regularly as I used to. The radiation fatigue is very different from the hard chemo fatigue. With the hard chemo, I didn't have the strength to get out of bed. With the radiation fatigue, I do not have the stamina or endurance to stay awake for long periods of time. I can go for a couple of hours and then I basically hit the wall and fall asleep. It has made accomplishing anything difficult... Plus, as I mentioned, I had company the past few days and I will blog about that next time. Y'all know I have to go in order. LOL

The last cool thing I wanted to share is that Big Daddy and I were having dinner the other night and he put his fork down and just looked at me. Of course, being the blushing bobblehead that I am around him, I just giggled "what?" to which he replied...

"I love loving you."

Now, that's the ultimate cool.